who do i think i am brand

projection as a medium, quite rich, it came from upstairs, daily powerlessness meditation, powerlessnessness, brown power, piles of paper, i'll say that again, never not here blvd, it might ask for you to pay attention to it in subtle ways, what was that? things i might have said, something i recorded, i already uploaded that, bargains to get what we want, feed the feed, you like it, my status, none of that imagery seems accessible anymore, one sec i have to re-boot, i predicted that, things in advance are behind, watching you rub your nipples, forms of binarism, who else is going to say it?, every thought mapping every thought, you never know when it will come, those sounds are from the 90's, lifer babies, only me, kill pages, let friends be friends, some sentences just hurt, the neuro-chemical hits you get from reading that, i already clicked on it, of course it evolves and changes, things to do when serving time, mercury in gemini, it's constancy seemed dumb, there is no such thing as duplication, at a certain angle this is impossible but i am encountering it, different forms of colour, the word forms, everything is nothing but diversity, we mean what was meant, proving telepathy, remotely induced intimacy, the things that make things, the word things, false walls, how much storage my brain has, who do i think i am brand, those images stimulate, it pipes itself in, seemed so alive, writing all kinds of prayers, strong as jello, it all passes through that wire apparently, 

shared wounds brand

how should i know?, playing with rgb channels, why would i hate you? hellen kellering again, how much better it feels when you say what you mean, not buying another one, my visions are what i see, flesh cave, i had to download it again, on my knees bathed in gold, shared wounds brand, jasmine, piles of stones, smelling hair, friends coming out of the woodwork, stir in the melted butter, you cannot teach what you haven't integrated for yourself first, quite a few pens, things on the floor, cheeks feel tight, a wonderful book of pictures, all these tiny hot spots, someone to do those things with, salt water smell, that could take 5 years, what practical looks like, what fish?, i saw that, liquid ash, you might need to transmute it, in other words, words are a form of editing, snatched from your grasp, hatshepsut the king, you can tell what the unspoken is through feeling where the displacement is located, a room of silk pillows, clear and cozy, i couldn't do that anyways, watching a mineral melt, throw a potato in the oven, what is that gross feeling trying to communicate?, i wanted to write the word pillow again, fruits of the desert, a master servant, that can be read a variety of ways, it is as specific as that, innocent strategies, where our abdomens joined and formed a sphere that began a process of torroidal inmeshment, the post a day club, it's like being a sharpening stone, massaging the scalp, the body memory you can recall,

that electric thing is affecting you

human nest, the tap dried up, flesh cylinders, hormone generating sentences, grandma had her own way of writing, balding woman brand, friends who aren't your friends, you seriously have to fuck off, things i haven't said to dad ever, meatloaf 8 track, once the tube was fully squeezed there was nobody left from before, i guess i am the only one who notices that, it's right there, subtle disapproval signals, indefinite slobber under those conditions, sagging lobes, can you see me?, it isn't my problem if i am your problem, i am writing this anyways, seriously, serio, mom's basement, four thousand in the bank, the base fundamental inequalities that debase and degrade and enforce an artificial structure that claims what is natural in us, the muscle that pulls that, nothing sticks,

do what for money, you have no idea how much i don't want to be here, the last white man i had sex with, you have to turn the truck around, everything in that store is full of chemicals, that electric thing is affecting you, nice pen, pine needles in a puddle, worms on a sidewalk, deer card, i don't want to be anybody's wife, the suggestion that coffins are safe, patterns like that are common, this is what happens after the breakup, a ring of amanita muscaria around the trunk, quivering nerves in the left trapezoid, that distracted me from drawing, the lumps there, glistening fluids, chatoyant, racoons, water washing the sugar down, something at the end of that tunnel, coffee flavoured pumpkin spice, sucrose vs glucose, nobody cares, i ate most of the mc tavishes chocolate chip cookies in the jar on the counter by the stove when i was babysitting and i was never asked back, violet says this is a long poem, it's hard to tell anymore, coffee flavoured paper cups for coffee,

everything in the entire world

that looks good, those gaping holes, north noding,
black kyanite, itdidn'thurtthatmuch brand, opalescent orange, lumpy carpet gang, just use a mirror, cameras take pictures of your vision using your eyes, holding that position as long as you possibly can, kelp tea, it has to get that bad sometimes, i lost the list, years of self discovery, the bonds are neuro-chemical, seriously it isn't even real, some kind of thing, what you plan on buying, you are kneaded, if i was into promotion, the word unbearable, melting shelves, all things being equal there is no such thing as equality, child free time for mothers, the level of discomfort at any given time, insane vacuum, fed on paranoia and hormones, it really was a fountain of tears, inperceptable closeness, imagining things for yourself, a goodwill pillow, google: photons, the itchy lips were likened to the times, not trained for love?, it is against it, mutual reciprocal wounding, everything in the entire world, the way fear acts within every individual system, that smell, it is happening to you, the container dissolved, weird overlappy things, you may have to sit there and let it die, the opposite of thought is:, telepathy is proto language, yah it is real, holding onto something, it worked regardless of your level of understanding, too many texts, it felt like a bath of gold, i may be repeating myself, all that tugging made no difference, the ghost here smokes, put the pill in the food, mc yoga, they watered until it ran dry, different things for different reasons, consuming positions, i keep forgetting to do this,

personal bomb style

that's how it feels, c2 and c3, silica supsension, those pants smell, good mom vs. bad mom, throw that out, i thought i got it all out but a bit stuck and it got infected, immobolized crystal frequency syndrome, describing your surroundings back to yourself, feel where the hip is out, under a tent of blankets, mutiple transluscent layers one on top of the other, personal bomb style, that longing is what holds the universe together, real reality, whatever puts you back in touch with your nervous system, lots of gum, i don't know what happened to the large blue flourite octahedron, the mother of all mothers brand, to be held, greasy paper, invisble boots you need to first find and then step into, forgot how to walk, looking at things, the other encounter centre, things that mean things, i am writing this what you are reading, a form of relationship, not that mushroom motel, negative transformative acrchetypes, they sobbed until they both felt better, that gets more attention than that, multi coloured torroidal field, more whatever, the diagram helped a bit,

nothing resolves everything

upside down and backwards, things designed to make things, emotional discharge free zone, self writing poetry, the aeon, where'd i put my ear buds?, nobody taught me that, sharpen that, lids to things, plumping balls, surfaces that slide, it's stuck, stop already, the feeling you get when you don't understand something, what happens when you individuate and why you avoid it, nothing resolves everything, i got made this way, excuse for what?, put that there, take it with me where?, the loss of found, i'm hungry, apparently the soil is very red there, poetry for prizes, symbolically holding a position, the moment you realized you didn't need school, pathology as anything that entrenches itself then becomes rigid and stops the flow, i guess i could change my name back, some people can get you, stuffyoudon'tneed brand, gimme some, i couldn't wrap my head around that imposition, the need of needs, the nurturing monotonous dynamism of homoeostasis, i felt cleverer in the summer, you (i don't know what), all this hair, boxes of pens, old art, people who say things to you, the feeling you get when you are falling, i saw that somewhere, feed it, mouths made for other mouths, all that imagery got used up already, meu companheiro, dakini ten apparently, skype is good for something, forget reading, you have permission to not ask permission, yah you are that free, enough already, things that put you in touch with your reality, sounds of denial, promising men, buildings built for the sake of building, poetry gangs, being kneaded, university of the trees, mouth stuffed with crystals, i'm ok not living in vancouver, say goodbye to your room, non revenue producing activities,

nurturing identity

chewing textures, black plastic things, different kinds of keyborads, idea harvest, that is dehydrated, tastes like candy, keep the file open, all the help i can get, a crown of leaves from a rubber tree, that fits good, all the freedom in the world, plug that in, every part is permeable, things that surpress other things, mind carpet factory, sacral kneading, uterine economies, nurturing identity, me spelling it out for you, back the truck up, shaktipat in absentia, experimental lifestyles, scabs and bags, negotiating nothing, need request, empty cups, the thing that undoes all things, remember yourself, i need a farm, paratoid glands, that's a crush, international texting, procreative capability limitations, electronic sounds, what's familiar, multiple consecutive disasters, crystal tape, hobbled gait, pummel till soft, plant some, your jing, everyone's smell, theendoftheworld street, love dream, make your self comfortable, that chiron thing, i already know my way around your neighbourhood, those carpets weigh a ton, one giant bag, yab yum brand, wonderful powerful women, here's your line in my poem, paper spoon, in and of this, paper fur, remembering nothing, pens you hate, the sound of frequency,

global tongue

thought shapes, you are going to have to take care of that yourself, maybe this line relates to you, i want to get paid to watch, this could be causing you stress, back the fucking truck up, the need to be angry, leave the conversation, maybe i can't go a day without expressing it, is this a: 'who is tuffer contest?', hope that is in the right place, i dunno sometimes it is old music sometimes it's new, humans in their environment, actlikeitisnthappening happy hour, don't forget the comma, life as a form of self-avoidance, scratchy smell, non-agenda driven drives, sent my imaginary ears over there, crabstyle, she died, this reasonableness is killing me, eyes everywhere, that kind of sliding actually burned after a while, who are you and what do you want?, all those previously tested methods didn't work anymore, soft walls, things that used to mean something, your floor my ceiling, time spent alone, integration levels and saturation points, repeater lines, holograms only appear solid to other holograms, shaktipat in absentia, the looks you get when you are really having fun, sounded good enough, delightful strong odors, poem machine, one thought to the next, physical intimacy is a health requirement, what's in your hair?, stasis maintainance squad, the nature of love is complete support and dissolution simultaneously, there is no way out but through, dancing nerves, global tongue, rare friends, at one point the only relationship necessary was this, the exponential development as misunderstanding, principal guidance, i dare you to come, rendering decisions process, enforcement of criteria, stuff that spills, it doesn't make sense, craft beyond porn, pay for the priveledge, the myth of permssion and the simultaneous necessity for the same, cans of stuff, all these simultaneous things, appearing apperances, i don't think eyes were designed for that, the energy that keeps it from leaking, one thing is another, success is a form of failure,

believing lies

it comes out, they are right there, time to do it, i don't know how that happened, three stones, plastic atop paper, water snake brand, shhhhh, that was disgraceful, i dunno take a minute with it and consider for maybe a second before responding, spray on love, i'm a mind, another poisonous thing to buy, squeeze it, what ever it says, fruits on the ground dropping from trees, the spaces you have between jobs, someone just said rape is natural, when i saw how dry the cedars were becoming tears just came out, plank's thing, greasy paper, nerves and vascular tissue combined, waiting for something, i don't want my kid in school, barely doing that, the floor under the floor, dreaming over working, the valulessness of it, unrecognizable things, untradable objects, the loss of nothing, really just a series of yes's and no's, i forgot how to do that, transitional object cling, holding on to nothing, waiting like a war bride, i used to have a practice, what time is now?, skin on bone, give me back my neurochemical cascade, believing lies,

edges of meaning

i dunno this stuff just comes out, give weird, love sick enmeshment paradigm, singular double standards, you aren't going to like it, it felt better when i did what i wanted, sensitive to that, i don't want it to be nice, i can see myself doing that, way way weirder, what level of no?, insert obscure word here, i can't uncondition that for you, the benefits of constriction, the time it took me to get here, if i feel like drowning then that is how i feel, that crevice wouldn't show if something filled it up, that was me in the 90's, not worth losing quality for, brave skeleton, problems with the diaristic model may include offending those who are a part of  your life, this can also flip and be flattering depending on the content, if you were to feel me it would probably feel good, edges of meaning, oh whatever you do don't hurt his feelings, random sticker response, those animals are being anthropomorphised, emotional stain, it may be worth it to say what you really mean, the word 'worth', people who are traumatized by who and what you are, giant crystal sphere atop a geyser, that image isn't real, the gas that inflates the balloon, configurations that literally drain the system, all the energy was going into fruitful endeavours but then a mirror came and bypassed all the outgoing information justified by thinking it could be a stand in for all other feedback, high bottom, low top, the value of disconnection, as if you don't think exactly the same things yourself, how's it reading?, thinkyouknoweverythingbrand, rewards for recognizing may not be what you hoped, you can feel when things change, going on a 'me' date, it isn't about 'you', when you are dead you can't even try, yah that is my inner keener, the difference between silence and quiet, bring it to the table, kali needn't appologize for anything,

nobody and you

oh i get to wake up, pass the butter, it's about variety, maybe one or two a month now, the dissolution of agendas, false floors and ceilings warehouse, i don't belong here, i need to renegotiate that, plastic lenses, crossed legs, as soon as i identify what i really want my whole body feels light, i can't sit at the computer anymore, the need to renegotiate plans, sucking cement, the right to be an animal, the right to be wild, where did that go?, dangerous opportunities, all my hair falling out, real and distant, stacks of pancakes, seeing the patterns in things, the hours spent cleaning, cooking grubs in banana leaves, no that is actually special, at some point somebody decided to try to organize things in such a way that productivity would be increased therefore reducing forms of challenge to survival and subsequently aspects of neurology began disintegrating, practice failing, nobody and you, oh the plug came out, there is never more or less anger at any given time, the relief you get when the memory doesn't seem to be there anymore, illusion free brand, when words just won't do say it with taco, 

the unfriend

bringing presents to black hole's birthday, my screen isn't that sensitive, i can't do this now, impulsive moves, the unfriend, it's the difference between cd's and mp3's, sitting brand, if you can project this onto you then you can, no shortage of breasts, big boy diapers, crab as soccer ball, listening to your own voice, knots in your back, heat throughout your body, cool tunes don't replace anything, when you really miss, pick you ups, that acid burns through the protective shell, i recommend exhaustion, wrong approach boulevard, my eyes are always my eyes, my response is my response, the value is apparently hidden, venusian nurturance, swollen digits, pulling teeth feeling, oh gross it is a schtick now, that level of frustration, cranky time for grown ups, seclusion is a requirement for deep listening at times, no your voice isn't appealing right now, scrubbing dirt floors, go back through the timeline, the first three months, sames aren't compatible, let's give a fuck, brick bodysuit, omg that is so like totally weird, something happened again, giant re-circulation system, i have seen it go around enough times to  know, yes there is a difference between 25 and 45 on the level of mind that depends on these concepts for it's very existence, me on display, soft hammer, frogs making love, false isn't the opposite of true, walking through a pond of glue, guts love food, you might want to shut up sometimes, the stretching container isn't necessarily happy about it, the difference between attachments and bonds, caring kills, enforcement of agreement is not order, milareapa building, the sound of one hand spanking, love chews you, the stage of the relationship where it feels like a giant acid trip that won't stop and can go on for years and each person is convinced the other person is making it happen, fiber optic hut in the fiber optic bush, the didactic nature, this is where you take over, boiling till soft, egg clutch, not always at the top of the wheel rotation, how do you know who i am talking to?, wishing it mattered when it doesn't, being the shell, how do you spell that, the days when indra's net became obvious to everybody everywhere, self imposed panopticonic level of experience, throw a carpet on it,

google tonglen

hurt is for hurting, this is boring, many me's, lots to love, chest cramp, doing some things the same doesn't mean anything, grey cubes, so what if clarity is subjective, clean it up, not responsible for that, giant paw playing with little crab, the power dynamic is obvious, of course it matters, boxes of pens, pads of paper, the shell cracked and hot water poured in, diamond in a safe, crap on the floor, people writing that nothing is happening to them, i am not a problem waiting to be solved, what i claim for myself i can offer to you, nobody else's job,  it is a responsibility, what hurts?, thoughts designed to doubt themselves, transmutation pumps that think they are special, it's a yes and a no, google tonglen, sure i can look at all of it with you, your conclusions are your conclusions, it really is that complex and that simple all at the same time, this goes to the value of integration, there is no right, crust in the nostril, gluing hair to a balloon, i don't know how long this body will last, interfering interference, it is a yes or a no, not particularly complex but what arises from it spawns infinite dimensionality, nothing to hold on to, the times you can see yourself as a lens, the freedom of knowing you are both, the language of violence, varying degrees of discomfort at any given time, i don't want to have to explain it anymore, that isn't a form of laziness, watching yourself doing yourself, believing things, put something on,

my inner your piece

zero possibility, would have been nice i guess, shoulder freeze, say goodbye, not ever anywhere, network maintenance, break points, the place where the road went thatta way, waving hard, this thing they say i am, numbed sacrum, i can't help you get it, that shaman dream, you need to look at that allegorically or metaphorically i dunno, wet smell, the sphere took up so much room you couldn't get your arms around it, the feeling of it pressing, late night brainwashing sessions, non existent dakini training academy, way too old for this, it needs you to be you, things you think you can do, it's waking up, all holes are portals, old man with a beard in a linen tunic who lives in a dirt cave, making yourself do things, what that feels like, overlapping similarities and their lack of compatibility, it is forms of opposites that work together to create harmony, right shoulder blade rub, stretched skin sacs, pieces of it drying in the sun, it looked ok at first, i bemusing, people aren't life rafts, recommended amounts of sleep, where did it go?, this was earned, patches in the road where the pavement is absent, rub some on the tip, chaos is a form of order, spelling it out for you, what happens when women realize they are still alive, canadian spelling, whatever it takes to protect this, squeeze the tube dry, how that feels, subject to this, the yoga of conflict and disillusionment, that is what philosophy is for, my voice still works, things that stick out, if we relax i am sure we can get it to fit, what comes through you are subject to, wet with fuzzy edges, hide the fact that you like that, more coffee, that energy exchange is actually a matter of life and death, wooden seat on top of a green velvet hill, behindcloseddoors syndrome, that doesn't even exist, fix what?, layered transparent circles, things that don't mean anything anymore, whatever it is you get from labeling yourself, lopsided muscle development as a metaphor for psychological comfort zones, nice ideas, people in rooms, electricity wants us to know each other, it seems obvious, the value of nothing, the intangible whole, i can't make it go away, it started out as a giant overreaction, things you want to explore that you have to pay people to look at with you because the content freaks everyone you know out, your pink holes, the streams of parents picking up their children after school, what is that for again?, my inner your piece, what possessed her?,

nobody knows anybody

succumblimation, resistance to work is work, the focus it takes to get all this done, nobody wants to get out of bed sometimes, t-shirt designs, my fingernails keep growing, your amnesia is a survival mechanism, no better idea today than yesterday, cerebral spinal fluid, the nature of this and it's effect on that, tongue quality, take a look at that, websites for yoga, the marketing of everything, this goes to the idea that everything you already are is being parceled and sold back to you in bizarre ways that you needn't agree to, giving the cream away for free, nothing but work, the trouble with honesty, i mistook the dog bed for a giant brown mushroom, qualities that only occur in isolation, i am here, openness is nothing without the closed, plastic invasion, the inning and outing of everything, how that relates to sex, feed artists, all these things the demand repression so that you may survive longer, it is one kind of trade or another, shaman types, weird design, what rescue?, viewing the inside of a torsion field, how do you spell that?, intimacy services, more coffee, food distribution systems and their relationship to the military industrial complex, fancy people, delightful stuff, sometimes i have to retype it 5 or 6 times, waking up one day, whatever you can do to maintain your dopamine levels, fire pouch, observing facial expressions, giant smiles of recognition, bodies untouched, hairs and scabs, nobody knows anybody, what you are and what people think you are, handy numbness, chaos formula, answers don't mean anything but are intellectually satisfying, trauma bonding is still bonding, you tell me, maintaining a certain distance seems necessary, the depth of nothing, surprise you are awake, cow sits, i am not going to make her do anything, you come closer, i forgot what that is supposed to mean, me me me me me, i can't sit to close to that hard drive, where you belong, voice licks ear, don't try and tell me that isn't sex, scorpio moon works hard to get you real, choose your poison, wondering which one feels better?, getting closer i could see how i needed that apparatus desperately, spellcheck senior high, stretch factor 8, isthisnanygood brand,

logos for things

forgetting what is inside, making more coffee, bilateral split, help me get that outta there, which grey is best? complete and utter disinterest, flat tires, i don't understand what is happening to me, it doesn't seem possible, me looking though my eyes that were not my eyes, touching my face, it just happened, what can i tell you?, if you do or don't do something will happen, that was the internal dialogue for sure, where are we going again?, the need to make contact, you want connection, problems that come from the mind creating recursive loops that bypass the ability to be intimate therefore reducing the ability to meet real needs, thin crystal egg shell, this is not personal though it happens to you, overlapping venn diagrams of selves, that inside is outside, exhaust that muscle to the point where it is finally ready to collapse, edges of unworthiness, something sharp and inflexible inside of a blob of tissue, requests to meet needs, there is no possibility that nobody understands what you are talking about, the concept of your own mortality, i don't want to be reminded so go away, it's actually all you want, wanting it all to your selfness, how that is impossible as well, those super hot kisses in the undergrad gallery, just get away from me, i do way better at  a distance, learned incompetency, relationships are stronger if they remain invisible, messier than usual, trust what?, i need all this time to myself, hormonal fluctuations, ornate mythologies, the expression of unconscious material, how we see it in others, hold it right up to my face, it felt so soft, bag made of fat filled with water, logos for things, spreading and parting, sifting and sorting, know about what?, drained that resevoir, messier than usual, the pot is for stirring, compersion meditation, all my hair is falling out, keepitcomfybrand, others as self regulation devices, both given to both, harmonizing layers, lovebug, why are you so cute?, mind blowing for beginners, love school, orficerator, what the mouth does, a really bright chamber of pink faceted crystal, eyes feeding on sparkle, wait for it, stuff happens,

inner vision

image of me

this thought demands i protect myself, algorithms that alter brain chemistry, clean clothes on a dirty body, things poking out of things, all of it collapsing suddenly giving the appearance of unity, uncomfortable shoes, cold blooded creatures, when we took off the shell all you could see was this soft material, the places where there once was a form of attachment, a muscle designed to cling, everything touching everything all the time, levels of friction, sounds as a result of critical mass, egg clutch, body parts as integral extensions of consciousness, leave me alone or i won't get any real work done, so then it goes to the idea that these emotions generate awareness in me, hatching, you could see the whole heart just beating away, i don't need you to do anything but listen, map stuff, all of me all of the time, where did you go now?, here i will try and manipulate you with these clumsy tools, the turn yourself inside out move, come back come back i want to play again, slurp, come closer, get away from me, lift me up, i need help, stop that, where am i?, shhhhh, they way you know that one, the too much never enoughness forever kiss of this, wanting wants, 5d nature expressed in undulating narratives which alone are relatively static, the smells we don't have anymore, i don't want the carrot to dissolve, what stories will i tell then?, naked time is mandatory for overall health, just cause i don't call you on your bullshit doesn't mean i don't notice, this goes to the merit of some varieties of neglect, each member of the group was chosen to represent a body part of the subject, it doesn't take a second to feel that pain, your organs are a set of agreements, teachers who hate to learn, the crisis that comes when you see that your value has never been in what you do or try to do, my goodness, the circuit still works, the ability to discern, brilliantcrystalsmoonstonesandopals brand, industries based on exploitive practices, cities designed to facilitate this economy, so cranky, i don't understand, discernement's relation to dissection, physical or energetic tools, concretized versions of concepts, ideas as a form of matter, seriously feel your abdomen, core binarism, not for an hour, puddle of fluid, identifying the layers, labia minora, image of me, memories of kitchens, memories are images r us, i can hardly believe i am actually doing it, whatever hairs that are left, pudgy soil, plump earth, engorged river, pink dolphin kisses, all the aspects of water as a metaphor, symbols as a way to trigger complex angles, nothing there until you notice the feeling of pressure you have from the weight of your own clothes on your skin, teeth showing smile, 

milking the nipple inside your head

my stuffness, piles of laundry, planned abandonment, scheduled disasters, gardens growing with no bees, swollen buds busting with scent, we can keep going so that it will hurt more later, yes we can, then we will have experienced what happens when you need to ween, everything going into everything, neuro chemistry rewards, the feeling of accomplishment you get when you master something, it's all about neuro chemical rewards, you know how much it matters by how much it hurts later, you see, okay, devastating impracticalities, they say do what you love, the difference between my imagination and the everyday, i want it to break fully, the maintenance of the body, i like these stories and how they evoke feelings in me, the warehousing, the disposal, even thinking about it in terms of a reward infers that if you aren't experiencing the benefit of the reward then there is a failure in you somehow, that body is in the ground now, laying on the ground on your stomach in the grass pounding the earth with all your energy until you are exhausted, wet cheeks, pink gel, some squishing, chamber filled with light, exposing the architecture of reality as it already is, singing it out of you, plasma bubbles, milking the nipple inside your head, trying to get other people to do it for you, pain experienced at the identification around a limitation, crucibles as requirements for new formations, the music you sent, ^ what he said, confirmation of delivery, my complex mixing with your complex, at first it felt warm like a hug but then i realized he was coming to put me in a choke hold, lets get really attached, really really really attached, the parameters to what facilitates certain levels of engagement, identifying areas that are not sustainable, i opened up the hatch on the floor and saw that there was a fast running river underneath, the train from leningrad to moscow played national radio, ice cream in winter, all the stories and then all the stuff under the story, expert faux painting as a lost art exalted at one time and represented generously inside the hermitage, don't need words for that, the benefit to mapping and investing in this technology is that you are potentially able to sustain the quality of connection you need for nourishment for a longer period of time, this is where your ability to articulate your awareness comes in very handy, my abdomen protruding as though i am pregnant, mind the winding river, it doesn't care, observe me as i struggle with fear, the unmediated rawness of that just completely destroys things, of course i will feel deep grief  throughout this, it's ongoing, every next evokes the last, there is such a thing at times, intolerance towards intolerance towards the self, does this look like a crisis?, it's horrifying for part of myself to see how satisfied another part of myself is by doing very few things in a day, get a job, the core of liquid metal, ill qualified to support large everyday realities, wetting your shirt with my tears, it's like you wake up in the morning and you grab your shovel, how it looks isn't about what it is all the time, this goes to the the naturalness of compromise, the tendency to only want to live in a dream, trusting that neglecting is sometimes necessary, it is going to take alot of energy to get out of the pull of this vortex, reactions you just can't hide, that be shenpa, and then he drew up a plan, lets be wise together, all levels of crumbling, thought habits, so much is about the nature of addiction and our feeling of powerlessness to meet our own needs, thoughtforms live through you, relationships as a form of vibrational mixing creating a type of sound object in space, so you can see how it is the third, you can each directly look at it, there is no blame,

stubby knobs

everything is one giant selfie, look at my sacrum, observing otherness, aspects that seem permanently hobbled, this freedom is free, i don't want to work hard at things i am not designed to do, stubby knobs, honey dripping from it, that's something, different pressures applied in different ways, underneath it all was feeling that i must repress my sexuality, just listening, back leaning on bark, months of kissing, months and months and months, superegoic, be honest about what you see there, the inner hand over your inner eye, years spent in total denial, relationships that feel like coffins, if everyone is in the closet it isn't a closet, strictures energetically, unprocessed grief, somatic brand, little nothings, the nature of desire, it's that geyser inside you, nothing wrong there, i can hear how your brain works, the integrity of a structure is related to it's naturalness, take a look at what you think naturalness means, pretending that we don't love each other game: holy waste of time, thinking that i have to i begin to cry, how did this happen?, outliers, it'soktohavemorethanonelover brand, the need to live your values more and more, in my mind it appears in the form of a galaxy model stemming from the center of my head, what day is it?, what kind of mother am i?, your ability to articulate complex thought forms can be facilitated by the person you are communicating with, i hope you do build the room that is completely filled with bed, bonding is a biochemical expression of our desire to be fed by that which we share with another, what you are left with is all there is, i want to bring it, nobody can love you the same as another so there is no competition, this practice is sustained through my accumulation of debt, i know only a few people where i live, virtual is real, culture's link to the economy defeats it's ability to reflect what is alive and present, preferable outcomes factory, i wish i understood what that meant, close your eyes, colonialist goals, the mixing you have been told not to do is actually designed to liberate you, who is that again?, these hands, washing cow with a nice warm cloth, parts of the body that asked to be seen, i like your ability to recognize the potential depth and breadth of sensuality, i can feel the heat travel up my legs, i want more than one, i know how i want it to be now, connective tissue disease, cartilaginous qualities, who doesn't know what i am talking about?, auto immune disorders, the thing that happens to most women when they get in a relationship, it doesn't look good, sell better, everybody get naked, what's not to love?, it is basically what is behind that,