stubby knobs

everything is one giant selfie, look at my sacrum, observing otherness, aspects that seem permanently hobbled, this freedom is free, i don't want to work hard at things i am not designed to do, stubby knobs, honey dripping from it, that's something, different pressures applied in different ways, underneath it all was feeling that i must repress my sexuality, just listening, back leaning on bark, months of kissing, months and months and months, superegoic, be honest about what you see there, the inner hand over your inner eye, years spent in total denial, relationships that feel like coffins, if everyone is in the closet it isn't a closet, strictures energetically, unprocessed grief, somatic brand, little nothings, the nature of desire, it's that geyser inside you, nothing wrong there, i can hear how your brain works, the integrity of a structure is related to it's naturalness, take a look at what you think naturalness means, pretending that we don't love each other game: holy waste of time, thinking that i have to i begin to cry, how did this happen?, outliers, it'soktohavemorethanonelover brand, the need to live your values more and more, in my mind it appears in the form of a galaxy model stemming from the center of my head, what day is it?, what kind of mother am i?, your ability to articulate complex thought forms can be facilitated by the person you are communicating with, i hope you do build the room that is completely filled with bed, bonding is a biochemical expression of our desire to be fed by that which we share with another, what you are left with is all there is, i want to bring it, nobody can love you the same as another so there is no competition, this practice is sustained through my accumulation of debt, i know only a few people where i live, virtual is real, culture's link to the economy defeats it's ability to reflect what is alive and present, preferable outcomes factory, i wish i understood what that meant, close your eyes, colonialist goals, the mixing you have been told not to do is actually designed to liberate you, who is that again?, these hands, washing cow with a nice warm cloth, parts of the body that asked to be seen, i like your ability to recognize the potential depth and breadth of sensuality, i can feel the heat travel up my legs, i want more than one, i know how i want it to be now, connective tissue disease, cartilaginous qualities, who doesn't know what i am talking about?, auto immune disorders, the thing that happens to most women when they get in a relationship, it doesn't look good, sell better, everybody get naked, what's not to love?, it is basically what is behind that, 

hexa octo whatever

i don't know what i can tell you, mega yin and mega yang, more salty taste, the value in that is it's inherent risk, people who don't feel the need to lie all the time, super ego's r us, lots of images to process, watching myself type this, i don't always only write in the morning, tight clothes, chaffed areas, balm melting as your finger gouges the center of the pot, hard plastic, electrically generated sounds, it's that thing, pulsing frequencies, jam on bagel, what does that mean, what do they want?, i don't understand, levels of imagery, layered metaphor, compersion commune, glands and the fluids they excrete, we like that, we like to see what our bodies can do, a lifetime spent trying to control it, the manufacturing of shelter, cow needs cover, you are a form of instrument, get used to it, omg that tastes good, amplifying rhythms and the edges on when they lose coherence, looking in on the edges that separate one form the next, stepping back and it appearing unified, hexa octo whatever, nothing is right or wrong, discomfort is imbued with information for self correction, some people have to be willing to destroy aspects of them selves to model for others their ability to endure beyond the constraints of what the felt they needed to survive at one point, the stretching feeling, holding these gifts looks like sharing, more cream, talented practitioners operate within ethical guidelines, it may only look good on paper, the room lit right up with the stream coming from within my mouth, repeating phrase, nothing does everything, we can put it in my obituary, i don't want to pretend that anymore, one to many relationship, keep the copper mirror polished, twisted up and down knotted threads, your self worth dependent on your ability to contribute to a false economy?, what it feels like to be the river and the dam, a life spent hiding from nothing except your own self exposure back on your self,  if you don't know how to navigate the terrain then you need to learn or work with others who do, my left arm extended outward with an open palm, it comes to you faster than you can run from it, don't worry, feel what way anymore?, disrupted narratives seen as opportunities, overflowing cup in hands, opening at the top of your head, gold entering through the heart, map the binaries until you realize they are spinning and plotting them is like holding your breath, decisions are creative,

reminderer

i don't know what this is or where i am, some of this requires utter abject isolation, none of this fits into the mother role, nunning, available to be loved by many, available to be asked questions of, available to kiss, i love what makes us, all of us and all of it, all the aspects i will never fulfill, that raw thing inside we are constantly trying to protect, reminderer, all dying for intimacy, i can't remember if i have used this line before, sure it reads well but if you saw me you might be disgusted, garbage everywhere, running water, você e tao sensitiva como eu, splenic flexure, can't look at those pictures anymore, the permaculture inside you, desire's desire, go ahead and change your mind, you need to come to the cow to milk her, the material i am made of, grabby, my speakers were all in the wrong place, the nest inside the nest, the tree inside the tree, projection is unavoidable, pinning, what do you think you are doing, gifts you don't know what to do with, if you have exited the parasite then it has been your host, all the levels of need, dirty river, i guess i could go out for a walk, the things i neglect so that i can do this, it isn't a matter of unsustainability, wreckless fufillment, my whole abdomen is swollen and i can't stop crying, the level of stimulation, check the temperature, pinning, shame as a function of opression, we still need time to explore, centres set up in communities where you can just go and practice sharing intimacy with others, i can't explain it, that's why books don't work, waveforms in all forms, what is in that compartment, i am scared about the new container collapsing, show me where i will live again, the appearance of distance serves a function, all kinds of trust practice, the physiology of transmutation, sounds good from afar, i don't want to look at that anymore, your attention is a form of feeding, then there is the sadistic version which i avoid at all costs, people who like to pretend they don't have needs, one giant seamless prayer, isthatevenaword?, so yah it doesn't stop,