hexa octo whatever

i don't know what i can tell you, mega yin and mega yang, more salty taste, the value in that is it's inherent risk, people who don't feel the need to lie all the time, super ego's r us, lots of images to process, watching myself type this, i don't always only write in the morning, tight clothes, chaffed areas, balm melting as your finger gouges the center of the pot, hard plastic, electrically generated sounds, it's that thing, pulsing frequencies, jam on bagel, what does that mean, what do they want?, i don't understand, levels of imagery, layered metaphor, compersion commune, glands and the fluids they excrete, we like that, we like to see what our bodies can do, a lifetime spent trying to control it, the manufacturing of shelter, cow needs cover, you are a form of instrument, get used to it, omg that tastes good, amplifying rhythms and the edges on when they lose coherence, looking in on the edges that separate one form the next, stepping back and it appearing unified, hexa octo whatever, nothing is right or wrong, discomfort is imbued with information for self correction, some people have to be willing to destroy aspects of them selves to model for others their ability to endure beyond the constraints of what the felt they needed to survive at one point, the stretching feeling, holding these gifts looks like sharing, more cream, talented practitioners operate within ethical guidelines, it may only look good on paper, the room lit right up with the stream coming from within my mouth, repeating phrase, nothing does everything, we can put it in my obituary, i don't want to pretend that anymore, one to many relationship, keep the copper mirror polished, twisted up and down knotted threads, your self worth dependent on your ability to contribute to a false economy?, what it feels like to be the river and the dam, a life spent hiding from nothing except your own self exposure back on your self,  if you don't know how to navigate the terrain then you need to learn or work with others who do, my left arm extended outward with an open palm, it comes to you faster than you can run from it, don't worry, feel what way anymore?, disrupted narratives seen as opportunities, overflowing cup in hands, opening at the top of your head, gold entering through the heart, map the binaries until you realize they are spinning and plotting them is like holding your breath, decisions are creative,

this is how i roll

that word, sitting back on it, buckets and bowls of it, people who have to act like they have nothing to do with you, backchannel method, lua cheia, left the cap off, need to pick those things up to clean under them, i can't think of a stupider way of doing things, my ears are plugged, endure this neglect, i stretched enough to hold all this and that, all the stories that people tell you, all the things you have a difficult time parting with, rip your own band-aid off, nothing fancy going on here, clear crystal sphere resting in the center of my head, soft cow, noodles, relative safety, dogma and what it does for you, i'll take the pictures if there is nobody else around to take them, it isn't personal it is neuro-chemical, i still don't know what that means again, no she's sleeping, self-musing, rose petals falling on marble stairs that descend into the ocean, trust me it isn't called aoneway street, virtual holidays never made manifest, it's portuguese, married to that blue geyser inside me already, i'm hungry, guess i need to change my settings, if she is scared there will be no milk, i looked over the seats at them and said they look dead, you want to make love, 'that's ok' brand, you won't want to stop making love, you just want to fuck and fuck and fuck and fuck, that sphere isn't going anywhere, hold still while i point the blue part of the rainbow into your eye, this is how i roll, open wide, sometimes you get to be that other person's last straw, ticklish laughs, the story where nobody get's their needs met, the need for solitude, find out what is true and operate from that place, sometimes i can see you sitting right next to me, when i went outside to look my whole mailbox was stuffed, you can suck from her tit and she'll lick your bum clean, feeding and cleaning, the whole point of dying without regret is that you live into the things you want for yourself now whatever they may be, store for people who think they need things, complete utter total denial toothpaste, fears fence freedom, you can do whatever you want in your mind, i can see, you aren't here to not affect others, we are all shaping each other, giant four sided pyramid in the middle of a modern city, stuff flying everywhere, nice isn't helping anyone,

the world is coming out of your body

justn'typing time, i like it when you like it, dreaming communion, want control?, get dead, your own personal cage, this is the thing, the pain of colonialism goes to the impossibility of regulating desire, people in cages, expression or somatization, this is when tantrums actually work, give or take a word, uploading takes time, i keep making things, nao se preocupe, send a sticker, maybe you have maybe you haven't, need a thoracic rub, our arms melted and twisted together my right and his left as we sat together under a canopy of leaves, more kombucha, this kind of thingy, sitting doing something, symbol that represents technology, fermented things are like that, i never want to hear your voice again as long as i live, truther, you will never get what you want if you don't ask, sexual shame and shame around desire requires that you develop a pathology, not teasing, i really mean it, the world is coming out of your body, tasted the best, slayage, no that's healthy, the relationship between acceptance and unconsciousness, don't act, if i need it it will be there, and and andndanadnadad dadad dada, nothing does everything, aligning with the mess that you are is perfection, love makes love, oh right - mountain,

practicing cow

silk thread coils, the personality structure that cannot support this, appearances appearing important, maybe satelliting is the only way, protection of solitude, super big bags of nothing, your friends may not be from your neighbourhood, the remoteness of true intimacy, black leather pouch,
swollen face in the morning, i need a plan, the feeling of nothing, bags for stuff, the obvious, i wanted the best for me finally, wow that cord dissolved before my eyes, pictures from around the world, suspiro, dysfunctional dysfunction, that is changing me, time before coffee, what is a spelling mistake?, bowls as stand-ins for my head, facebook brand everything, the new #howdoyoublockthisemail? stadium downtown, ihonestlydon'twantanythingtodowithyouanymore avenue, temporal rules, variations on a theme, people everywhere want to be your friend, coughed out a chunk of that architechture, crystalweb kiss, the impossibility of neurotypicality, i am ok with having less anxiety sometimes, just waiting, practicing cow, all the flesh detaching from inside the shell, endometrial red#2, attention is the only true currency, foundational economic structure, reality communicates to reality, words are souvenirs, you will die eventually, framing device, just squeeze it, might as well be you as no one else can, non- savoury uses for avocadoes, experience of unpopularity, patacake, patapoem, i can barely spell anymore, rub my spine, all kinds of people involved in the re-education of themselves,

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self lubricating ceramics

i want nothing to do with myself, withhold it and it'll appear more rare, collage with my own nipple sin it, way too old for school, dakini training, good for another poem, chat won't bring it to your understanding, somebody new doesn't know you yet, the whole thing fell through the bottom, various forms of collapse give way to new forms of expression, sandy soup, made to mate, glass bead with bubbles inside, just show up and start talking, don't even start, sometimes repeated, the safety of the family, bandying about this term and that, pronk, prufrockian, tag that #pizza, there is no such thing as undoing, streams of particles, spelling love, honest worms, oh no i care, all that resistance makes it stronger, i forgot to call them back, if it isn't there then it isn't, self lubricating ceramics, that key doesn't fit this lock, my nose, it isn't much but it's mine, permission to post, what's the word for that?, can i like that?, wave functions are idealizations, smoothness is a result of eliminating through judgement information deemed unimportant, un-copying, un-writing, i ching you, put that there, the empathic psychopath cafe, jump for joie, he definitely saw her as threat, almost unnatural, the effort to not do what comes naturally to you, unspoken contracts as glue, each individual as part of an intricate larger whole, society is an auto-immune response, miracles are just the undoing of knots, streaming german radio, oh i just forgot, quantum poetry, holographic prose, you are that already, certificate in mail art, worry is about future and guilt is about past, look it's the obvious over there, sock marathon, i disagree with how that is spelt, cigarette flavour, fermented cigarette, i'm so sorry, book before bed, seriously it's a worm, orange worm, worm cluster, this is how i really kiss you, gotta 'do' 'something', such wonderful eyes, behind the seams, plastic brain, judy blume, desiring nothing from without, fuzzy gum, cameras with legs, the difference between privacy and secrets, can't see it long enough, oh look at me, oh no did i just press send?, itchy face, jumped in a pool with no water,

saudade

all my best guesses, self care, relationship to hell, shiftless wonder, watching what happens when you don't help out, the nothing feeling, remote viewing, copy that copy, closet children, 5 strategic questions, scratched too hard, i wake up and it just looks like that, when mommy wants more, clip it here, banal juices, mouth my mouth, bhakti style, judgement suspension addiction is a form of constipation, go in there and really look at it, might as well before you die, what can go wrong?, a style is a style is a style, the impossibility of avoiding pain, the parts that feel they are speaking directly to you, there is no wise, shoulder blade points, hood ornaments, pillows made of donuts, drawcansir, the time it takes to waste time, i need all the love i can get, the roles we play, ithyphallic cluster, word licks, eye whispering, vertical filaments, the pleasurable nature of irritation, you don't get to choose anymore, the days when i painted the nails of strangers in montreal, poetry straights, who you gotta know to get things done?, this thing that has made everyone a form of currency, the embodiment of boiling, sense parade, dopamine structure, the burden of reconciliation, one part watching the other part fall apart, apart mental, drawing for a living, saudade, greasy mirror, paper grease, cow in a pen, zetetic, bowl filled box, institutional face, morriña,

collective unconsciousness

i don't plan on injecting this poem into anything, gag, whatlistwhosthatnevermind, it's national poetry cannon day, pay your dues one letter at a time, relevancy factor 0, resayati, women poetry gangs, watch the type you choose, positive think this, being trained to be a membrane, tracing boecklin by hand, 'it's all about you chrissy', sharp pains on the top left hand side of the head, i literally developed a stutter in that with him, 'if you don't understand i can't tell you', particle/wave duality, gofuckyourselfclub, why is it ok if he does it?, call the dog, i was only 3, feed the rats, does this smell good?, observing the behaviour as it unfolds, the last paper floor, popular or no?, what happens to the family when a mom says no, bibhatsa, constant choking, xenopassiveprintforms, not really needed anywhere, the feeling of having been here before but it isn't deja vu, somebody else fucking do it, get everything ready for everyone then get yourself ready, as if it matters how long i have been doing this, it isn't a gift to anyone if you just emulate, my first answer was most disagreeable, dutika, cluster of coping mechanisms, orange lid, drawing barfing, that line is enough and so is that word, we stopped at the edge of a vast dry lake bed, collective unconsciousness, more reciprocal bulges, sticky thoughts, steam clouding over the windshield so i couldn't see, the fear of liking what nobody else seems to like, this is as far as some people can go, hey that's what families are for,

smelly sound

i can't help this any more than you can help that, running downhill, stop being a fish, amyg, front cort, cereb, tie them all together with some lovely crystal string, more paper mache, that makes good kohl, gunk that wants to creep on you, symbolizing both aspects actually, time for a break, smelly sound, containers don't even exist, self conscious authenticity, shiny shiny shiny mirror, your face will stay that way, the core of online clarity, all the richness diluted, the purity of the form, neti neti - ish, pocket of pus inside the brain even, stop signing me in, the bi sexual nature of everything, orange paper, what comes out through the understanding of things, boycott everything until they stop, little bluelight flashing in the corner of the right eye, hey gimme that, the ears are working differently now,

throat bandha

breathing words, eyes made of crystal, the seclusion to actually focus, lost another poem, messy love bath, a quality of self, sitting towards legs on top of legs eyes gazing into the other, need to back out to see it better, the timbre and flux, this thing there i can't wrap my arms around completely, i'll touch you from here, separated by what?, bawled on that image, actually responsive and sharing that with you, the feeling when i pass my eyes over words, probability amplitudes, transmission of this quality remotely, choosing where to put the word, burning skull on my leg, that space is real estate?, being in a tube and you're being kneaded, code for: i'm sorry, barefeet sponging on moss, of course i see you but the limitations are apparently obvious, approfondment, june was just hammer hammer hammer hammer hammer, selfing prayer, this is the situation, get dérive-ing, anything to take seriously at one point, which brush, creation of a new vocabulary, going down the throat of the blossom all covered in pollen, we can share our gifts with each other, here i am throwing these images out to you, lovely these, but you know that, a little room to be in, words pointing to what isn't, bring me back still, looking for the looker, the absorption quality of flesh, feeling weak to the magnitude of this, it's only always, birthdays are for mothers born days are for offspring, it's quite something, what did you say again about "it isn't what you'd call a 'human quality'", made a new tool to pierce the membrane from inside, throat bandha, don't just stand there help her up, princess of disks, how are your lumbars?, coming back for all of you, let me crawl inside, let me crawl all over you , it's all difference so there is no appearance, rocking pelvis, i can't get this thread out, of course we will cry, sun drying hair, ok, it doesn't even look like a word after a while, please hold this mirror up, press into it it's soft, the most comfortable receiving thing of all,

perineum to pineal

sometimes i can't tell what i am, i couldn't stand up, these cramps make me feel like i am falling, all these sidewalks with no people on them, this phenomena is quite something, each one gets more and more complex, you can push too hard with nothing, a deep sense of poverty on a certain level, i'm here waiting you know, this part will wait forever, the radiation effects the skin for hours after, i put myself in prison, the feeling of your whole body praying, nālamekabhāshayā, unpacking everything, this green light tells me it is on still, the clouds are burning off now, just wait and listen, his whole body heavy from the weight of this, the dream where i gave birth to myself, nidulariaceae, facebook sangha, what happens when you just tell the truth, interrupting what?, i can't control my brush as well today can you tell?, layers and layers of crud to skim, the dizziness of my throat when i go to speak, perineum to pineal, a-rational and contralogical, one thing nesting inside another, i don't want to do anything else but this, this channel brings in all kinds of information, a barely perceptible filament, i need a shovel or something to get some of this out of here, when i do this others things aren't getting done, i can't write it here, sometimes chunking makes it harder, so many images, the polarities, their need for each other and the spin they create, water on the boil, i can't lift my head from the side of the cot, i can't look up, with all my heart i pray this sprout to grow, this membrane that keeps one thing separated from another, looks like a mom in a basement, apparently a mother, i just put my whole hand into it, the whole chest area heaving up and drawing me forward, more falling, this bruise here, my god i love you, what are you?, what is happening?, smashed jar, i don't think there is really enough time left to follow those antiquated protocols, so tired, the ability to stay focused and work hard, i'm just in the kitchen making us something to eat,

the obvious

the obvious / chrissy core / dadawitch  / 2013

nothing pusher

these poems cry me, shhhhh, air on it and pink and poking out, yes, just caving to itself, raw feelz, you know this because you recognize it in yourself, the subtlety of this cannot be communicated at a distance, literally will have to touch me to understand, the delicacy of this tenderness, yes, i get a feeling of what it isn't that is you, no work just to share what i am, a crack in the sternum, my heart, these covers smell good, ditch the shell, it's hard to sit up straight, all these 0's and 1's spelling out the word love, what do you want for lunch then?, i could eat your mouth, what have i done now?, i will take it into me, not hard just direct viewing, piles of food wasting, that career path has been derailed for a while, the favouring of a weaker limb, it honestly changes from one minute to the next, paper bed, less frequency more density, that feeling then spread over my whole entire body, the whole thing gave way, nothing pusher, this is what my practice looks like, it is not a not love situation, attention in these areas, i am available to have questions asked of me, this is devotional, there is a kitchen in every home, a yellow construction paper circle, tucked my hair down the back of my dress, what happened then?, where did you go?, i am always standing just here, you know this,